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30 Day Running Challenge: Day 29

Do you like running with a buddy, in groups, or solo? Why?

I used to HATE running with people.  I always found running to be very personal; a great time to reflect and be alone with your thoughts.  I have found, though, that with training, I love having a running buddy, or at least someone to ride a bike along with me.  I find it much harder to stop when there is someone with me.

On a side not: I FOUND MY IPOD LAST NIGHT!!!  Victory for me!

Happy running!  I can’t believe the 30 day running challenge is almost over 😦

30 Day Running Challenge: Day 22

Define your relationship with running.

Hate!!! Today is thriving with hate!

I’m just kidding.  I would say “love/hate” is the best way to describe it.  As I have written before, it can be your best friend or your worst enemy, it is basically the physical equivalent to my conscience, if I can just beat myself, then it will be great, if I can’t, it will be disheartening.  

But that is why I love it, even when it is tough.  Some days are easier than others, but you can never get away with less than your best. 

30 Day Running Challenge: Day 20

Have you ever followed any sort of training plan? Which ones and how did you like them?

Yes!  I would be completely lost without a training plan.  For my first marathon I was training for (then got sick for 😦 goodbye $140) I used the Runner’s World training plan from their book “Marathoning For Mortals”, but for the last marathon and for my next one I am using Hal Higdons Intermediate training plan.  I like it because it doesn’t include a required amount of hill or or fartleks.  Though I think these are very necessary, I find this training plan to be effective and not intimidating.

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This picture has nothing to do with running, but I love it.

Accepting the Compliment

I have always been afraid to outwardly admit that I am “good enough”.  I have always kept myself a rung or 2 lower than I probably deserve.  I have forever countered compliments with a negative, or something to dispute what is being said.

In high school, I was a state-recognized, record-holding soccer goalie, but at the time, you would never hear me call myself good.  I was the team captain, a “leader” on the field, was congratulated by parents, teachers, and classmates after good games, but I always acted as if it was all a fluke.  I had this fear that if I ever let myself believe that I was actually talented, that would open the flood gates for someone to disagree.  If I didn’t say it, I didn’t have to defend it, or I could say, “I told you so”, if I ever failed.

To this day if anyone compliments me on an accomplishment, or even my looks, I answer with something self-deprecating, remark about my weight, how I think my hair is stringy, or how my skin is like that of a middle school boy going through puberty.

I ran my first marathon last October, and any time someone congratulated me I would focus on the fact that I didn’t hit my time goal, or I had to walk for a mile because of heat and I had been sick all week.  When I crossed the finish line, I didn’t feel accomplished, my first thought was, “welp, gotta do better next time”.  

My habit of downplaying and degrading myself really hit me when I was telling one of my best friends about how I felt after the marathon, and her answer was like a hilarious slap in the face: “Quite frankly, that is really dumb”.

I just busted out laughing, because it was so true!  This was a conversation over G-chat, but I could just see her expression and hear the tone in her voice as she said it!  She was so right though!  What is with the safety net for failure that I carry around? That so many people carry around?! It is like giving yourself permission to fail because you never actually said you were going to succeed in the first place.  Training and finishing a marathon was probably one of the first things that I allowed myself to succeed at and I even try to kill that.  No wonder my life is floating around mediocrity, I haven’t even opened myself up to feel deserving of a compliment, much less the best my life has to offer. 

People say, “you get what you deserve”, but I believe that you get what you accept to expect to deserve.  It is time to switch the thinking.  Of course, there is always room to be better and improve, but not at the expense of what you have already done.  Whether it be running a marathon, a 5k, potty training your dog, or keeping a clean room for more than a week, do not be afraid to pat yourself on the back and recognize the victories you have every day, big or small. 

So, if you are anything like me, learn to accept compliments, admit when you have had a good game, or accomplished something.  Open yourself up to believing in being worthy of the life you want!  

Cheers!

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